God the all-knowing ARTIST

Lord, you have examined me and know all about me.
You know when I sit down and when I get UP. You know my thoughts before I think them.
You know where I go and where I lie down. You know everything I do.
Lord, even before I say a word,you already know it.
You are all around me—in front and in back— and have put your hand on me.
Your knowledge is amazing to me; it is more than I can understand.
Where can I go to get away from your Spirit? Where can I run from you? If I go up to the heavens, you are there. If I lie down in the grave, you are there.If I R I S E with the S U N in the east and settle in the west beyond the sea, even there you would guide me.
With your right hand you would hold me.
I could say, "The darkness will hide me. Let the light around me turn into night."
But even the darkness is not dark to you. The night is as light as the day; darkness and light are the same to you.
You made my whole being; you formed me in my mother's body. I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way. What you have done is wonderful. I know this very well. You saw my bones being formed as I took shape in my mother's body. When I was put together there, you saw my body as it was formed. All the days planned for me were written in your book before I was 1 day old.
God, your thoughts are precious to me. They are so many! If I could count them, they would be more than all the grains of sand........... When I wake up, I am still with you.
God, I wish you would kill the wicked! Get away from me, you murderers! They say evil things about you. Your enemies use your name thoughtlessly. Lord, I hate those who hate you; I hate those who rise up against you. I feel only hate for them; they are my enemies. God, examine me and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any bad thing in me.
Lead me on the road to everlasting life.


Seriously, isn't this beautiful? If you didn't recognize it It is Psalm 139. The first part tells all about God's all-knowing power. Every thought,every move, every action, every motive, He knows it. Then you see how He is everywhere! We can't hide and we can't run. To the highest heaven to the deepest Hell, He is there. Then you see the break down of God the awesome artist. There is this whirlwind of creativity in a womans womb as God fashions the likeness of a human being. Every detail is noted and nothing goes without planning or unnoticed. Every single day of the person's life is written down even before their first breath.

I think this passage has been speaking so much to me because I just found out I'm pregnant! Woot woot. If you want the story go to my new pregnancy blog. I'm really wanting to blog my whole expierence so there will probably be a post every other day. I know I haven't been super faithful with this one but I have a theme with the other one and will definately be more consistent. If you feel so led, subscribe to it. You can join me in my pains, cravings, mood-swings, vomit, and cry fests. It will be fun!

Standing Ovation

On my lunch break I turned on the tube and caught a little of Michael Jackson's memorial. I know some may be kind of overdone with Michael Jackson comments but I wanted to share something that hit me. I saw the founder of Motown Records, Barry Gordon, give his comments and he stated that the term 'king of pop' just didn't do justice but that Michael was the greatest entertainer of all time. Watching my t.v. I see thousands upon thousands of people stand applauding, giving homage to the greatest entertainer of all time. I noted my arm hairs stood a little bit just seeing this moment of thousands of people feeling the same thing at once. It hit me, the people who deserve this kind of acknoweldgement and accolade aren't getting it and they never will.

Michael Jackson was an entertainer. An Entertainer. Entertainment in and of itself has no lasting value. Entertainment is nothing. I'm not saying entertainment is wrong by any means but it can in fact do much harm. As Christians, we can become lazy and engulfed with entertainment so much so we enterain ourselves right to hell. It's true. Michael Jackson was an icon of the whole world and only God knows where he is right now. We can say for sure, biblically, if he did not receive Jesus Christ as saviour before his death he is in hell and that gives me chills.

So who really deserves these standing ovations where the world pauses to take note?

Has anyone heard of Smith Willglesworth? Or Leonard Ravenhill? Or Brother Andrew? What about Richard Wurmbrand? Or even the well-known work of Carrie Ten Boom?

In Acts 7 the story of the very first christians martyr is told. A man by the name of Stephen speaks truth as it is about Jesus Christ. It drives the 'religious' of the day crazy.Literally! They are so convicted by what stephen said and knew they were in the wrong they began nashing their teeth in anger. The pick up stones and begin to stone him to death. Where is Jesus in the midst of all this? The bible says He was standing at the right hand of God. Not sitting, STANDING! Jesus was giving his full attention to a man who was laying down his life for Christ's sake. Stephens courageous actions cause Jesus to give him an standing ovation.

As I watched the world stand and applaude the 'greatest entertainer of all time' I couldn't help but think what kind of legacy am I going to leave? I don't need tens of thousands of people applauding me. I want to be before one set of eyes. I want one pair of hands applauding me and thats Jesus. I'm not out to leave a legacy that will eventually fade away."Well done my good and faithful servant.." thats all I want. I'll cast my crown back at his feet because all glory goes to Him.

If one person was left standing in your honor who would it be?


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So Thankful...

So I was reading Mesha's post about our mentality in America toward our food, which really applies to everything. It's just fact that our environment forms our way of thinking whether we want it to or not. My husband works in a doctors office and he is always commenting on how people expect "fast food" health care. People will complain if they have to wait 15 minutes for an x-ray because they have a hair appointment. ITS YOUR HEALTHCARE PEOPLE NOT MICKEY D'S. We are surrounded by a faced-paced, need it now, 15 min's or its free society. Not only that but we live in an abundance. Our Recession is other countries fortunes, truly it is! I'm not belittling the crunch people are feeling, it's been hard for everyone. When a spouse loses a job, or your pay is cut, or the savings account is dry, things become difficult. But are we thankful for what we DO have?

Almost exactly a year ago I spent two weeks in South Africa ministering to orphans, children with AIDS, and in their public schools. It was a wonderful experience that has cursed me for life. I don't see a half-full plate being thrown away the same.Sometimes our abundance of food disgusts me. Just today I was having lunch at Jason's Deli with my husband and the buss-boy came and took my plate. I had a couple bites of bread left and that was it. He threw it in this portable trash-can and my imagination started painting a picture of what the inside of that trash can looked like. Salad greens, half-sandwiches, parts of cookies, un-finished soup, the crust the spoiled child refuses to eat, ect. Then I imagined those beautiful dark faces I haven't been able to forget, rummaging through the trash.

At one feed we did about 100 little kids came scammering out of their tin box 'homes' to get in line for their meal. We partnered with a group that goes to this area twice and week and feeds them squashed pumpkin,rice, and gourd. We were there to serve but I was so broken because I knew back home I wouldn't even think about eating what I was serving to these starving kids. For some of them, it was the one meal out of two they would get for the ENTIRE WEEK. 

How hungry am I? Are we "starving" like we say?

WE ARE BLESSED! PERIOD! How thankful are we that our needs are meet? Even if someday we don't know where our next meal is coming from will we have faith to trust that God is our provider? I try to live by a motto: "Don't pray for something you aren't willing to be an answer too". Pray for the hungry, the sick, the naked, the poor. Then get off your knees, and let God use you to meet that need.

AMEN

I'm A Poet And You Didn't Know It

So I love poetry. Its one of the things I "do" but its been awhile. Here is a video EVERYONE needs to watch. It's totally worth it I promise. Grab your self a seat (and if your standing at your computer , thats weird) and get ready to be amazed. Even if you don't like poetry, you may like this... I'm having trouble uploading it*Bummer* so here's the link.
http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=26145462cb5b63af56c7&sp=1

I've been studying 1 John lately. Taking everyone at our Bible Study at work through 1 John actually- and its been really good! Hopefully, I'll share more insights later. He is good.
(Mesh, I promise I'll blog more:-)

So I may not be new to creative writting or sharing my opinon but I'm new to Blogger. After a friend *cough* mesh*cough* was like "Audrey, you really should....Audrey why don't you get a blog....Audrey Blog and follow mine...whine whine whine" I decided too. 

Ok, really I used to journal a lot and it helped with my music writting and Jesus devotion so I figure I may start it up again. 

I got married almost nine months ago and it sure has taken up a lot of my time. I felt like a lot of my creative juices came to a halt after our wedding because I was focusing on my relationship with my husband. Now I'm done with that and need to be preoccupied with something else. KIDDING...kinda. 

I'm not sure to the extent I will use this thing yet. Maybe I'll start up a book, or just get on to shoot a one-liner vent, song ideas, poems, sermons, or maybe I'll rewrite the constitution. (Oh wait, someone else is already doing that...) whatever the case may be. 

So follow or not, its all good. (If you chose to follow me I promise I won't claim Diety or bring you prosperity or any of that cultish stuff)

In fact, if you stick with this blog long you'll see I tend to point one way....thats up.